Describing the heartache, confusion and passionate love that belong to the mystical journey, this series of personal writings explores a central paradox: what belongs to the individual who makes this journey, and what belongs to God? This primary question is discussed in detail, drawing from the author's own experiences and the context of the Sufi tradition. The featured passages are personal, heartfelt, and full of the contradictions the author has endured, demonstrating how the Sufi path is lived today within the heart and soul of a contemporary mystic. Delving beneath the surface into the heart of the mystical relationship with God, this intimate memoir illustrates how challenging and rewarding living this love affair can be.